By R. Aaron Flores
My first month w us
not rlly fw one another
In the same way at least
different now for me bc i
was the one who
broke down/went away
It's happened before
w you and w others
when i've tried to distance
in the broadest sense
give a little less acreage
of the old mind fields
to shit you do and
ways you are that literally
drive me crazy
all good tho
It's become a funny time when I know it's best
To bond w bros who don't make my dick move
I cry for Eric as he's trucking thru
those Utah ass orange mountains
He’ll probably see a lot of flowers
On his way back to texas
good quick tears bc it's turning too hot to bawl
but it warmed me in my new pink heart
That that boy's life is about to change
For good bc he seemed to have good faith
It's just little shit that changes w me
like knowing i shoudn't just write you
Let the max or whatever demon computer
in my hand stay bone dry while i sink in
I guess enough dudes know
I’m not tryna fuck rn
Or just would't be fucking
w me rn anyway
wait maybe i did do something
I know i get pretty manic
I’m being weird about my prep
Bc I know I don’t really need it rn
Like do I really need to stay ready like that
when i'm like serious about not blooming
to attract rn and it's my own good choice
from the best thinking of my soul mates
Plus the white pill is hard to get used to
The blue pill just looked cooler and stronger
Maybe this way the third marriage will be
Better and maybe i'll be a Bigger Man
Like Antonio might say that shit is for the birds
And maybe I'm so lost bc i'm rlly for the bees
Horny for all the pollination of the szn
But not rlly putting out a flower this szn myself
seems best to just do me right?
and just send love instead of juice for rn
I know i'm still setting some seeds and my dick
Feels fine as an abstraction for right now
R. Aaron Flores is a writer of poetry, essays, and fiction and a communications professional based in both Houston, Texas and Brooklyn, New York.
Aaron's writing typically centers around the queer Brown experience in various forms and often integrates his extensive time in nature. His professional communications engagements are all social impact-focused with an emphasis in agriculture, policy and political representation, health access, and urban land.
For his work in local policy, he has been appointed to several advisory committees for the City of Houston. As a volunteer and advocate, Aaron gave the TEDx talk, “Building Authentic Community by Seeing Your Neighbors” on localism and the built environment, he was featured on the University of Chicago Public Policy Podcast for his work after Hurricane Harvey, and he was a founding member of the Houston Women’s March.
Aaron, who answers to several other names (aflo, raf, renay, and more) depending on your preference in the absence of his own, plays outside a lot, often trail running, paddling, hiking, swimming, and more. As a writer and thinker, he is ultimately interested in reconciling the primal aspects of our human nature with our relatively recent existence as urban, public animals. You can follow him on Instagram or on his homepage.